Change

Change is happening more deeply for everyone right now.

What used to be "grounding" I now see as rigified ideas.

What used to be "nurturing" I now see as empty mirroring.

Purpose used to be a driving force that pulled me towards an ideal. Now purpose feels more like a blade that cuts away everything that isn't pure, present and self-sustaining.

I cannot help acting in a way that I know might discomfort others.

Because I cannot keep lying.

I cannot make deals with the degenerative.

I can only stay true to what I experience. I can only course correct and move on. I cannot dwell in forgiveness, because dwelling only keeps the trauma going.

I can only keep moving with Earth's changing current.

I cannot wait for confirmation, even if it used to feel nurturing. I am nurtured from within.

I cannot wait to be seen as grounded, because I am grounded in the boundless current of change.

I cannot identify with "my purpose" anymore, even if it fills me with certainty and meaning. What fills me is way subtler.

And the more I empty, the more I am filled. The less I exist, the more I exist.

The more we change, the more we die, and the more we are faced with what our life really is.

Love